2004.03.23 16.48 a split personality message or a heralded return to cyber-posting (from livejournal) wow. it's been a while since i've done this. well, the dichonomy of my life persists. the better things are becoming, the more paranoid i become. i begin hearing the whispers around me, my eyes become blurried, my mouth becomes muddled. i feel like the past, real or not, is constantly going to haunt me, and i question myself. i question my honesty with myself. i run for the future. looking back two years ago, three, 1 and a half, i can't find the person i was then, because it isn't the person i am now. was i replaced or just scarred? did i wake up? uh, this is so hard. life in los angeles is well. i finally found a home after months of couch surfing, only to have it taken away by the landlord and then we found another home again. i move in in two weeks!! my life consists of drawing and/or doing extra/p.a. work (movie stuff) in the daytime and dj'ing at night. all of which is going really well. i couldn't be happier. it's sunny everyday. friends are constantly driving through, and i have a crush from afar, whom i'm a little too afraid to talk to. i don't know if i ever will. girls are scary, see above. Mood: artistic Music: roy